I can see your smile flashing bright white perfect teeth dazzling in it's own glory.
I can reach out and touch your chin running my finger tips along the rough bristle of an unshaven jaw line.
When I close my eyes;
I can see your lips, so soft, so plump, so full, so inviting.
I lean in to lay my lips gently and affectionately against yours,
I can taste the sweetness of your lips entangled in mine with a kiss...
A kiss full of unspoken promises and unsaid words of love.
When I close my eyes;
You are there holding my hand,
gazing at me through your eyelashes with your beautiful hazel eyes,
in a way that only you could--making my heart and body melt under your stare.
You tell me everything will be alright, that you love me, you have always loved me and always will.
That you are waiting for me, you will always be waiting for me, as I will always wait for you.
When I close my eyes;
I can feel you,
I can remember you,
I can see you,
I can hear your voice,
hear your laughter.
I can touch your skin
and feel your heart beat as I rest my hand among your chest.
When I close my eyes;
It is so painful to open them again and you are not there.
How I long to wait for the next time I close my eyes.
MRS WRIGHT!! HI!! MY NANE IS DEBBIE CUNNINGHAM!! I KNEW YOUR HUSBAND & THOUGHT OF HIM AS A LIL BROTHER!! HE ALWAYS HAD MY BACK!! I'M VERY SORRY FOR THIS DEVASTATING LOSS!! I ALSO LOST 'THE LIVE OF MY LIFE" IN 2013!! HE WAS FOUND DECEASED UNDER A BYPASS, IN CINCINNATI, DUE TO ETHANOLINTOXICATION & HEROIN OVERDOSE!! I WAS COMPLETELY SHOCKED WHEN THE I SEEN WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO YOUR HUSBAND!! I KNOW FOR A FACT THIS WAS HIS MAIN REASON FOR MOVING TO ANOTHER STATE YRS AGO!! ADDICTION IS A TERRIBLE DISEASE!! I AM A RECOVERING ALCOHOLIC & ADDICT MYSELF!! DUE TO MY BOYFRIEND OF 13 YRS DYING UNEXPECTEDLY & MY MAMA, WHO WAS GOOD FRIENDS WITH YOUR HUSBAND'S GRANDMOTHER, BEING DIAGNOSED WITH SMALL CELL LUNG CANCER!! I HAD TO CHANGE!! I HAD TO BE THE DAUGHTER THAT MY MAMA HAD LIST AINCE I WAS 12 YRS OLD!! I'M NOW 54!! MY NIECE IS FIGHTING THIS HORRIBLE DISEASE AS WELL! I'M SO WORRIED THAT I'M GOING TO LOSE HER!! WE HAVE JUST RECENTLY FOUND ONE ANOTHER!! I ONLY HELD HER FOR 15 MINUTES WHEN SHE WAS A BABY!! I SEEN HER WHEN SHE WAS HERE WITH MY BROTHER WHEN SHE WAS 12!! SO WE'RE JUST TRYING TO GET TO KNOW ONE ANOTHER!! IRONICALLY ENOUGH YOU KNOW HER AUNT ON HER MAMA'S SIDE OF THE FAMILY!! I'M BEING HER FRIEND, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I CAN GO KEEPING HER SECRET!! SHE IS TELLING ME SHE'S SEEKING HELP!! I HAVE MANY CONCERNS!! SO YOU SEE I'M A LIVING TESTIMONY ,AS YOU, ON HOW DESTRUCTIVE & HEARTBREAKING IT IS TO LOVE AN ADDICT!! NO MATTER WHAT THEIR ADDICTION IS!! I'M WORRIED THAT I'M GOING TO LOSE MY NIECE!! I'M WAITING FOR HER TO CALL!! HOPEFULLY AGAIN TONIGHT!! I HAVE TO LET HER KNOW HOW I'M FEELING!! WE HAVE TO HAVE A PLAN!! I'M TRYING TOSEE IF SHE'S GOING TO DO WHAT SHE SAYS!! IF NOT I'M STEPPING IN!! I HAVE TO!! I CAN'T LOSE ANOTHER LOVED ONE TO THIS DISEASE!! MY THOUGHTS & PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU MRS B. WRIGHT!! TAKE CARE GIRL!!����������������
ReplyDeleteDebbie,
DeleteThank you for reaching out to me. I need those connections to Brian, from his past. I need every part of him really...
I wish I knew what to tell you to help with your niece. I tried everything. I would keep Brian's secrets and then when that did not work I would reach out to others to help me in anyway they could, to help him. I pray your niece wins this fight. It is so rare to see people who win the battle, and that I definitely need to witness. I am curious as to who her aunt is that I know. It's strange how such a HUGE community feels so small, and so many people know each other, and are connected.
I am sorry about your boyfriend. I still don't know how to live on and everyday is a new day for me...