My Eulogy...

I will always remember the first time I met Brian. I knew in that moment my life was changed forever. We had a strong bond and relationship for two years before we got together. He helped me and my children through a horrific time in our life.

We needed him, we needed Alexis; we needed a family. He saved our lives in more ways than one. I believe I was also there for him in his time of need. We needed each other, I knew God sent me this man and his beautiful daughter for a reason. He game my children the father they deserved and helped sculpt my young boys into amazing young men. He made my daughter feel safe and loved.

We had many ups and downs over the past 8 years, but I always believed we would somehow get through it, together, we always seemed to. We had a great love and even when we were pulled apart we were always drawn back together.

This man is my hero, always has been. My Superman.

Our last days together were a struggle, but even still, we knew we loved each other and even said as much. He will forever carry my heart...

We tend to rely on forgiveness and surety that our loved ones will always be there as I know I did. I thought we just needed a second to catch our breath. In our last moments there were tears, anger, and pain, but never short of love. I wish the last thing I ever said to him was "I love you". I wish I had held him in my arms, kissed his sweet lips and gazed into his gorgeous eyes full of love.

I will miss his smile, his smirk, his heart beat under my fingers as I rest my head among-st his chest as he would hold me and kiss my forehead. I knew I never wanted to be anywhere else in the world.

There are a lot of things I would take back if I could. To have him with me now to grow old together as we had promised. But life is too short, life is too unpredictable, and you don't know when it will be your last moment.

What I am trying to say is to: count every second, every moment as your last. Never take your loved one for granted. You will never be able to take back those words, those regrets. Love each other and be sure they know you do.

I love you Brian, although I know you knew I loved you, I should have said it more, I am sorry. I love you and will count every moment and every breath until we are together again.